Standing still.

That’s right, the complete opposite of growth.

When nothing is happening.

OK, that is far from true, but rather it is that I don’t like how I am feeling.

Dammit.

Why is that?

Well, it’s a lot of things. We got allergies, migraines, and rent increases. And, of course, there is business and life, the money and ‘work’ side, as well as the reason that boring stuff is worth dealing with: the relationships.

Those relationships aren’t just the people behind them; I’m also thinking about the me I am within them. There are all the cool ways they bridge into “personal”, and yet remain and expand into the “professional” and “professionally”. How those complexities are both an honor, fun, and a challenge. The effort, oh DAMN the effort. If we look at things operationally — that is a Hell of a lot of effort.

We have to remember both the facts and the ways of communicating. We have to be honest as well as kind. We need to maintain ourselves and think of them. To earn a living from these relationships there is to be candor and clarity and the insane willingness to both walk away and be walked away upon.

And then, there are our wants. My wants. And so: stagnation.